Dilemma
Well, the word has finally come back from the agent. My current script is ready to proceed to the next level. This has been an interesting project from the start. I’d like to say it was like writer’s boot camp but it was more like advanced training. Glen brought together a very diverse group of individuals and pushed us all a lot further than we ever would have gone ourselves. I think he overestimated our ability to meet the deadlines set a little. Not that it matters too much, it’s been a learning experience for all of us, especially me. I wrote a script I’d never have written, and went places inside myself that haven’t seen daylight for a very long time. As Steve O’Hearn says, we deal in brutal truth but the other side of that coin is brutal honesty with yourself and the fear that walks hand in hand with it. As well as other things
As writers, we have a tendency towards arrogance. It comes from long periods alone bashing stories into shape. From deep research onto some obscure subject so that your back-story will ring true. And it comes from the delusion that your doing it all yourself, that the only person you can depend upon is you. It’s both true and utter bullshit all in the same breath. Of course being in the thick of it, you don’t see it until you absolutely have to. Some never see it at all.
Which is probably why when you first get an agent you haven’t a clue what to do with them. It sure feels like they don’t know what to do with you. How can they really? It’s new relationship neither of you know the other. He or she is judging you on your attitude and what you’ve let them read, or if your lucky that short film you shot last year. I know it drives Glen nuts that I’m a gadget freak but he appreciates what I do with my gadgets (hey enough of that gutter brains). Now as we have grown to know each other better over the course of this year we’re a lot freer with our exchange of ideas (he can give me shit for writing dreck because he knows I can do better), believe it or not it is a two way street. It’s a lot easier to pitch an idea and have it shot down than to submit a screenplay you’ve just spent eight months on and have it cut to ribbons.
But as usual, I digress. The groups as was originally envisioned consisted of fifteen writers, male and female, of varying ages. A few dropped out because of personal crisis or just plain bad timing for the project and it’s ability to be fit into their lives. Which left twelve of us. Glen split us into two groups of six for convenience. Neither group was to have any contact with the other or discuss our ideas or projects with each other. A pretty easy job for any writer. We then went to work on our individual projects, getting through the treatment, outline and rough draft stages. We met, we cajoled, we argued points of story and we critiqued each others work. It was at this point that I realized just how far I’d come as a writer. Not because of some arrogant notion that I was the best writer in the group, far from it. It was more a reflection of the quality of scripts I read in the rough draft stage of everybody’s work. Bearing in mind the fact that nobody ever shows anybody their rough draft, euphamistically called, “The Vomit pass.” I mean I’ve read for a couple of prodcos so I’ve gotten the over the transom stuff. Ninety nine point nine nine percent of which is pure crap. Hell I’ve even read the, “We need a second opinion stuff.” And binned them because of poor third act execution or I hated the main character. So I wasn’t expecting to be blown away but I was. These were good scripts, these were run to the producer’s office and bang on his window scripts. Well they were going to be at least… In a few more drafts, I could feel it.
The second draft gave everybody fits. I think, I know Glen wasn’t too happy with mine but then I did hand it to him telling him it was a steaming pile of crap. This earned me a bit on an ass chewing later (see free exchange of ideas) and it was well deserved. I knuckled down on the next draft resolute to do better. Which brings us to now.
My group has split again. Three of us from each group have been placed in a new group, the other three of each have been left behind. Not you’re out of the band left behind. I think it was more of a time issue. Some stories need a longer gestation than others. There’s no shame in it, it’s simply the way it is. If I’d been held back I’d have accepted it too. I wouldn’t have liked it but I’d have accepted the outcome. It’s a long journey sometimes you have to detour.
So what’s the dilemma? Notes. I’m supposed to give notes on five screenplays, three of which I’ve never read, two others, I’ve followed from conception. What the hell do you say at this stage? The work is good, it’s really good. Solid dialogue, good story, the works. It’s no love fest but I’m having a hard time critiquing these works because there’s not too much to bitch about. It’s humbling. I sure hope they’re having as hard a time with my stuff.
I’m not sure when these scripts are heading south. There’s talk of mid August, there’s talk of October. I don’t know how many will sell, I don’t know who they will sell to or for how much. I don’t know if they’ll get made or languish in turnaround or molder on a shelf in some studio back room. I will however share this with you. For the first time in a very long time, I can see a light at the end of a very long tunnel. It strong, it’s true, it’s pure and it sure looks like daylight to me.
So hang in there, it’ll happen.
Good luck and good writing.